and suddenly, we lost sight of forever..
i have to do this because this is the only option that i have for now.. i never really know what's there for us tomorrow.. or on the other day.. i might want to look forward for the best things to come our way.. but i can't still discount the fact that we are both like a paper boat this time.. fragile.. easily broken..
i actually wanted this relationship to be the best for both of us.. but it seems that things aren't just going right on track.. maybe just for now.. to be honest, it pains me a lot not to communicate with you.. we were both vulnerable these past few days.. maybe because of the busy schedules that we have.. alongside the overwhelming demands of our own professions come a strong challenge for the forever that we've once built..
i am happy that you are enjoying your job.. and i know you'll be a lot better in the days to come..
i don't really know if this "idle mode" for our relationship[should there still be any] would work out.. we have never really settled things down.. we both don't know what to expect from each other and what to do to each other.. we just both disappeared on each other's vision.. on each other's senses perhaps.. with no expectations set.. without even the assurance of coming back to each other's arms again..
i don't want to say goodbye.. this might not be appropriate for our situation now.. should things get well in the near future, i will still be here.. i will wait until time allows me to.. remember, there's someone whom you can come to whenever you get lost.. when this dumb life throws trashes on you, just never hesitate to approach me.. and there's always a helping hand and heart right here.. i'll give you time for now.. we both need that, i believe.. you can always come home to me.. i love you.. and you know that..
and you might want to reminisce with this song.. the one you sung to me over the phone a few months ago.. who would forget that sweet voice singing a sweet song in a sweet cold night..
